Foolish Girl

Innocent dreams, of a foolish girl
Blinded by a false sense of security
No control, no planning could ever make it be

One mistake, shattered lives
Body broken, beyond repair
Life forever changed, thrown into despair

Dreams disintegrate before my eyes
All I can do is lay and cry
Losing everything I've loved; what was once mine is gone

Can't repair the damage done
No matter how hard I try, how loud I scream
Life is harsh, cruel, and mean

I'm left inside a broken shell
Forced to live within my personal hell
Wishing I would wake from this nightmarish spell

My life is not a dream
Every day I'm faced with harsh realities
All I want to do is run

Devoid of joy, of hope, of fun
Surrounded by everything I want, so out of reach
Imprisoned in this lonely keep

Deprived of touch, of warmth and affection
Living has become it's own infliction
Every day, harder than the day before

I can't take this pain anymore
I long for everlasting sleep
I just want to be at peace






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Haiku: Death

Death is calling me
I long for its endless sleep
To breath my last breath

Wishing to be free
Tired of this misery
Take me to heaven

God, be merciful
Release me from this rough life
End my suffering

I am so tired
Please don't let my eyes open
Take me in my sleep

I've suffered enough
Carry away my burdens
Ease this awful pain

Let my soul escape
I am chained to this body
Give me my freedom

Death I pray for you
I would gladly embrace you
My only savior



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Not Good Enough

A poem (for lack of a better word. I don't exactly follow a set pattern or style. More like random thoughts...) I wrote a couple of months ago. I rather not go into detail on my thoughts behind it. Interpretation is up to you. Just thought I'd share:


Guess I wasn't good enough
Not enough to be your all
You've cut me deeper than you'll ever know
The pain runs through, down to my soul

I was holding on to a fantasy
All the while, you moved on
False hope
False words

Guess you were never who I thought you were
I just kept holding on
Don't know what I'd do if I were you
Things to good to be true

I was clinging to your memory
Seems I had things wrong
Broken promises
Broken dreams

Guess you were never mine
Thought all I needed was to do my time
The past pushed me on
Those illusions are all gone

You choose your path
My heart snaps
Lost love
Lost hope

Guess it's my fault for losing you
Don't know what I'm going to do
Blame myself for everything 
Can't see what good the future brings

Bittersweet memories
Erase them from my mind
Impossible to stop
Impossible to run away